Saturday, January 24, 2009

Worry Is Like a Rocking Chair...

Someone once said, "Worry is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but it doesn't get you anywhere." How true is this? I have never been a worrier. My mom always was..and to quote Shelby from Steel Magnolias, she told her mom, "I never have to worry because you worry enough for the both of us." I have always told my mom that in my best southern Louisiana "Shelby" accent! :) But really, I've never considered myself a worrier. We had a picture in our bathroom in the house I grew up in with scriptures about worrying, and casting our anxieties, fears and worries on the Lord. And I can say, it always kind of stuck with me. They were blue with little birds on it, and I can remember it vividly! However, I am ashamed to admit that it has kind of slipped away from me- that worry free attitude. It all came on when I found out we were expecting a sweet baby. It's crazy the thoughts that pop in my head. For example, the other night, Matt fell asleep watching a movie on the couch (I think I went to bed around 8:30!!). I woke up in the middle of the night and he wasn't there in bed. Pre-pregnant Lindsay would've thought: "Oh, he fell asleep on the couch watching a movie. He's done that before." And I would roll over and go back to sleep. Pregnant Lindsay, on the other hand, thought, "Oh crap! Where's Matt?? Did he have a heart attack or something and never made it to bed? Will I have to raise this kid on my own?? Where is he?!" Then I jumped out of bed and made it halfway down the hall because I heard him snoring in the living room. So I just rolled my eyes at myself, and got back in bed...and sprawled out in the middle since I knew I didn't have to share it! :) My point is, it seems like my brain goes nuts at the littlest things, especially the new things I feel going on with my body. And people have laughed at me, but hey, cut me some slack- I've never done this before!! Also, I have no idea how the baby is doing, and questions arise in my head, like is the baby healthy? Will he/she be normal? Will I have an easy delievery? And I could keep going, but anyone who has been a first time parent knows the questions you have. It's hard to be at peace because I am COMPLETELY out of control, besides taking care of myself. Anyway, my point is, isn't it such a wonderful feeling knowing that we don't have to control things and determine the outcome of events, that our God is in control and all we have to do is cast those worries on him? What a relief!! I challenge you, especially if you are a woman, because we need the most help in this area, to "let go and let God." So I will leave you with this passage from Philippians 4: 6-7: "Do not be anxious about anything but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. (Here's the awesome this slowly) 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Wow...isn't it wonderful to be a Christian and to have the peace of GOD? Amazing. Hope you have a peaceful week!

1 comment:

  1. I remember those feelings so well -- like it was yesterday. Now, everything you do effects another person, and you have to give yourself time to get used to that. You will freak out about things, but, eventually, you will realize that God will still take care of everything -- He did not give you the baby to take care of, He is going to take care of both of you!